Billie Lourd and Carrie Fisher.
(Photo by Getty)Billie Lourd she admitted that she feels “sad but grateful” as she celebrates her mother’s eighth birthday Carrie Fisher’s death.
Speaking about her complex feelings about the sombre event, Lourd shared a tribute along with her throwback photo with her late mother on Instagram on Friday, December 27.
“It has been 8 years since my mother died. As my son would say “that’s a lot!” I always dread this day. I spend a lot of time leading up to it thinking about how bad I’m going to feel,” Lourd, 32, wrote. “And my panic is often justified. I woke up this morning with a dark cloud over me. But when my children woke up the dark cloud disappeared and gave way to bright sunlight. The anniversary of his death is like an emotional tropical storm. It rains a lot during the day but between storms the light is better than any day without storm clouds. There is no rainbow without rain.”
The actor went on to use an analogy to describe what it was like to struggle with his feelings of grief.
Amy Sussman/Getty Images; Jim Spellman/WireImage Billie Lourd pays tribute to her late mother, Carrie Fisher, seven years after the Star Wars actress’ death. “It’s been 7 years since my mom died (but who knows? I guess?),” Lourd, 31, began in her Instagram caption on Wednesday, December 27. […]
“There is something good Anne Lamott To quote, grief is ‘like having a broken leg that doesn’t heal well – it hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance and limp’. And that explains how I feel today completely,” Lourd wrote.
He continued, “Yes, the weather of sorrow is cold and yes I may be limping but I am absolutely dancing in life (oh did I quote the bad guy?). And I’m actually a better limp dancer. My grief has given me a deeper appreciation for all of life’s little moments. So today I am sad (sad but thankful). I look at the magic that is my son and daughter and I know that you are part of that magic. And I feel all things. Sadness. Happiness. Longing. Magic. You asked. Fullness. And it all comes together in a profound way. Sending my love to everyone out there who needs it. ❤️”
Since Fisher’s death, Billie has welcomed her son Kingston, 4, and daughter Jackson Joanne, 2, with her partner. Austen Rydell.
Fisher died in December 2016 at the age of 60 after suffering a heart attack. One day later, Fisher’s mother, Debbie Reynoldshe died of a stroke at the age of 84.
In the years since her mother and grandmother died, Lourd has been open about her loss.
Last year, Lourd celebrated the anniversary of her mother’s death with another poignant post.
“It’s been 7 years since my mother died (but who’s counting? I guess?),” Lourd wrote in December 2023. “Every year the anniversary brings a different iteration of my grief. Some make me angry, some make me cry all day, some make me feel divided and worthless, some make me feel worthless, some make me feel guilty for feeling worthless, and some make me feel all of those things at the same time. “
Billie Lourd has shared how working on Gia Coppola’s new film, The Last Showgirl, made her feel closer to her late mother Carrie Fisher and grandmother Debbie Reynolds. Taking the stage with actors Pamela Anderson and Jamie Lee Curtis at the premiere of The Last Showgirl at the 2024 Toronto International Film Festival on Friday, September. […]
I Scream Queens The alum also admitted in December 2021 that processing grief is “not easy at all.”
“I’m in a different stage of grief every day,” Lourd wrote on Instagram. “My passion is multi-course meals with many complex ingredients. A funny discussion followed by a drink of anger accompanied by stress, acceptance of the event and a slight denial of dessert.”
He continued: “And that’s how grief should be – all things at once – in fact there is no ‘should’ be sad – grief is just whatever it is to you and it should be ‘so.'”
